* first of december – first blahg after losing my decade of dreams *

I didn’t think that after trying so hard to recover something I’ve been working on for almost a decade would be completely lost. It’s funny because some times I can recall and picture most of those dreams…that were written/logged in my dream journal (which I saved in my external drive, which crashed and burned and never retained power). And somehow, with that being said, for awhile I felt that writing down my dreams (or even having any dreams at all) had crashed, burned and would never retain power again. But here I am, trying to focus once more. To aim, to plan, to have fun and to succeed. However, focus! It really bothers me though! So when I say focus, it hurts me so much that I hate it when naturally I focus on not dreaming anymore. I procrastinate. I hate it!

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